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City Year Update #1

Greg Bem of City Year Greater Philadelphia

What follows is the first in a series updates that concern my membership as a City Year Corps Member in Greater Philadelphia. I will be engaged in teaching at Olney High School West for the next 9 months of my life, and have obvious sensations of fear, nervousness, excitement, and ambition all swirling around inside of me. Though I know not of what to expect tomorrow, when I first walk through those doors in the far North of this city, I am prepared to be open-minded, and teach students the best I can.

As far as these updates go, expect a vast variety of information and literature. You can read an essay I had to write on “why I deserve the red jacket” (a token symbol of the City Year program) here. I posted it on the collaborative blog because it felt like a good status update and Jeff Brennan likes to put in status poems. The following update are several documents that compose a portfolio, which my City Year leaders will use to help put me in classrooms, and which the teachers and principal of Olney West will use as well, to get to know me better. There is no denying that creative inspiration will come out of this educator’s experience, and so other updates may include narrative or abstract poems, prose poems, diary entries, and perhaps even a photograph or two, about my City Year experience–including the good, the bad, the wild, the crazy, the passive, the active, and all that is in between. Controversial material, or the bluntest of the blunt statements, will probably be held for privacy reasons.

I contemplated opening up a new blog to display the material and keep it confined to one digital, and perhaps that will happen down the road, but for now the updates will go here, with all my other posts about all my other life things. If you have questions, comments, or want me to expand on or continue anything in particular, email me!

Biography

I have only recently been in Philadelphia. I grew up in Gorham, Maine, a small town right outside of Portland. In the spring of 2004 I graduated from Gorham High School, the one high school in town, a public school. Although my upbringing was liberal, progressive, and though nearby Portland is the cultural hub of Southern Maine, most of my younger years were confined to the rural/suburban life of Gorham.

Immediately after my high school graduation, I went to Roger Williams University (RWU) in Bristol, Rhode Island, where I studied poetry, English Literature, sociology, and anthropology. During my four years I was engaged with numerous clubs, organizations, and activities. I was a deejay for four years at the school’s radio station, WQRI, and while involved I also reviewed CDs for the school newspaper. I ended up becoming the station’s Music Director for one year, where I worked with artist promotion companies through New England. Other activities include: volunteering for the Campus Entertainment Network for wide-range media events; founding with four others a student literary magazine called Gewgaw; hosting Scrabble tournaments; participating with other artistic individuals in the weekly open mic night, called Expression Session; and taking part in the Chair Rearrangement Club. During my undergrad, I was also connected with the Providence arts scenes, both mainstream and underground, which introduced me to diversity, multi-culturalism, and a wide array of artistic backgrounds.

After I received my Bachelor in Fine Arts (in Creative Writing), I pondered my options. During the summer of 2008, I lived in Bristol and worked as an intern for the Department of Transportation’s Intermodal Section. Getting a taste of the government, when combined with my ethnographic studies during my anthropology and sociology work at RWU, inspired me to expand my urban horizons and move to Philadelphia, which I did in October of 2008.
Since moving to Philadelphia, I have quickly become engaged in various artistic and professional circles. I have been a member of the Poetic Arts Performance Project, a local poetic/performance community in Philadelphia, since late 2008, where I have started and maintained its official blog, have taken on videographer responsibilities, and helped organize and run poetry and music events both in Center City and in West Philadelphia. In early 2009, I became a member of the New Philadelphia Poets, who work together to refine their own art and bring members from other cities to Philadelphia for readings, while also hosting events that promote the group as a whole. Most recently, the New Philadelphia Poets hosted a poetry carnival in the Magic Gardens on South Street for the Fringe Festival.

In addition to my arts/community involvement, I have worked at a diverse set of jobs during my short time in Philadelphia. My first job, which recently ended, was working as a bookseller at Borders in the Philadelphia International Airport. Becoming involved with a culture that brings every type of individual together was very important to me, and I look forward to pushing this love for literature outwards. Since last fall I have worked varying degrees as a grocer at Jonathan Best, a gourmet foods store in Chestnut Hill. Putting myself in a place I have not accustomed to gave me a great introduction to the idea of neighborhood community in this city. Other jobs that I have performed in Philadelphia include manuscript reviewing and editing for Paul Dry Books, located downtown on Walnut Street, and writing narrative/interview articles for the music magazine Origivation.

I believe that while young, consistently experiencing new people and places is important to expanding skills and living a fruitful life. When I first moved to Philadelphia, I moved into West Oak Lane (around 17th and Church), which was an extreme culture shock for me, but in addition to opening my eyes and breaking down stereotypes, it gave me a sense of home. When my half-year lease ended at the beginning of summer, I moved to Fishtown (Berks and Girard) for its affordability and proximity to Center City. Most recently I moved to the Reading Viaduct area of North Philadelphia (12th and Brandywine), where I currently live with three other City Year corps members.

I chose Philadelphia for a number of reasons. I had heard it was cheaper than Boston and New York City, and had a great arts scene; I knew it was relatively close to New England, which I wanted to leave; and I knew that not many people respect it as a city due to the amount of negative coverage it gets in the news. I moved here with a gut feeling, a combination of excitement and nervousness, and have done nothing but enjoyed it ever since. Despite the immense amount of problems that I have come to notice and attempt to understand throughout the city, the people here, people of all types, have been inspiring, motivational, and important to me. I plan on continuously expanding my horizons, meeting more people, and hopefully I will be able to live and work with them to make life better for many.

The idea to join City Year came about around the time I was leaving Rhode Island for Philadelphia. I did not really know what I wanted to do after school and was hesitant about going into an educational field. I did not necessarily want to become part of the academic culture just yet, but I was contemplating teaching English abroad. Graduate school was another possibility, and remains an option, but before City Year became my goal, I wanted a break from being a part of college life. I remember browsing through the various AmeriCorps programs and City Year seemed to most admirable one, the best fit for my experiences in college and my personal goals. To help young people, despite my inexperience, has always been a desire of mine, and City Year seemed like the most straight-forward way about getting into the experience. I believe that everyone can use their skills in a way that can benefit humanity, both those with and without privilege, in immensely powerful ways. At the moment, I am looking forward to taking what I have learned and putting it to the test, learning a lot because I do not know much, and hopefully allowing those around me and myself to exchange perspectives.

Academic Subjects

Based on my own interests, I believe I know what I am and am not able to effectively teach. On the other hand, while I am assured of what I know, I have little teaching experience; however, I am ready to confront what little experience I have and work hard to learn how to share knowledge to the best of my ability.
The academic subjects that I feel most comfortable teaching, or help teach, include reading comprehension and grammar; literature and poetry; reporting; technical and creative writing; performance arts; and computer software/hardware.

I feel comfortable teaching digital photography, and digital film production (videography); graphic design and desktop publishing; local history and ethnography, national history, world history, and art history; sociology/anthropology work in and out of the community; and basic science.

Though I am sure that I am not listing them all, I feel least comfortable teaching Mathematics; politics, business, and law; visual arts (painting, sculpture, pottery, et cetera); sports and health; musical instrumentation; cooking; and machinery/mechanics.

It is important to stress that though I have not had great learning experiences with certain fields in the past, and thus I do not feel capable teaching them, I am interested in all topics now, in my own life. Any necessary information that I do not have a grasp on would be information that I would readily confront. I would consider teaching uncomfortable lessons as challenging opportunities rather than burdens, as I love learning and love to see others learn. If I am put face to face with information I know little to nothing about, I will look forward to doing the research and learning the information without hesitation.

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Summer Readings & Worth

Recently:

maldoror

Dead Souls

Rage of the Red Lanterns

Final Crisis

Whatever Happened to the Caped Crusader

Current:

Johannes Cabal the Necromancer

Infinite Jest

Upcoming:

Infinite Crisis

Inherent Vice

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Behold, Sweet Uploaded Videos!

Cruise over to the PAPP Youtube page and you’ll see a ton of newly-uploaded, albeit dated, videos from live events around town. I just found out I can indeed upload large files despite my mooching off another connection somewhere nearby. Here’s one particularly fond memory of a collaboration with Dan Schall, performed and recorded at the beginning of June.

In other news, people are yelling down in the street beneath my house. And in other, other news, tomorrow I’m going to be meeting up with some poets and handing out broadsides of my work (I’m going to refrain from posting my broadside until I’ve got videos and pictures from the event as it goes down tomorrow).

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Leadership

Until I get my official City Year Journal blog up, this journal will be the conduit.

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Iran and the Demand-Centered

From A World to Win, this news sequence, which was sent via email as the events in Iran unfolded over the past few days, has definitely been as emotionally palpable as the videos and pictures on websites like the Huffington Post, but the literary efforts and the analytical approach, which is a mixture of objective and revolutionary prose, has trumped the others I’ve encountered.

Live from the streets of Tehran

15 June 2009. A World to Win News Service. Following are reports sent to Bazr, which describes itself as a Marxist Iranian student organisation. These reports have been selected, excerpted and edited slightly for clarity, but they are basically “raw footage from students and others active in the political turmoil preceding and especially following the 12 June elections. They are in reverse chronology.

Saturday 13 June

Fatima Square was tense starting this morning. People who were there then say that many were viciously arrested. The special police were controlling all the streets leading to the Interior Ministry. They were everywhere. Passers-by were not allowed to stop. Anyone who made the slightest objection was arrested or hit with electric batons. But not many people had gathered yet. Chants of “Death to the dictator” rang out from every street corner. Motorists responded by honking; the police responded to any gathering with batons, kicking and beatings. Shops had pulled their shutters halfway down, and the owners were allowing people to take shelter there. A police loudspeaker ordered all the merchants to close down completely, warning that everything was being filmed and that anyone who failed to comply with orders would be in trouble.

After office hours more people rushed to Fatima Square and Vali Asr Street. First on the sidewalks and then in the street people were chanting “Death to the dictator”. [There was some ambiguity as to whether the “dictator” was Ahmadinejad or both him and Khamenei – the plural of dictator doesn’t rhyme in Farsi.] When the police attacked, people ran, then stopped and went back to shouting slogans, but there still was no coordination among them and they were scattered. The support local residents gave demonstrators was amazing. The people in the area sheltered escaping protestors in their homes.

Amidst all this we heard that a contingent of a thousand demonstrators was walking from Vanak (northern Tehran) towards Fatima Square. This news encouraged the protesters around the Interior Ministry and many of those watching from the sidewalks joined them. People blocked Vali Asr Street waiting for the marchers to arrive. They sat on the street and didn’t let cars go north. After 20 minutes the marchers arrived and more people joined the protest. Then the police charged into the crowd, but the crowd counter-attacked. Several police were beaten and four police motorcycles and three police cars were burned. From this moment the crowd moved with more courage and determination. Teargas grenades were streaming toward the crowd but people kept chanting slogans and shouting. They broke bank windows, burned city garbage cans and pulled down fences along the street while marching towards theInterior Ministry. Two city buses were also set on fire. Gunshots were heard everywhere [although at that point the police were apparently firing into the air].

Later we heard many stories of arrests and vicious police attacks, including against young kids and elderly people in the crowd. The fighting continued until 8 pm when the fully-armed special forces were brought in. It was announced that they would have the right to shoot. At first they tried to scatter people and lure them into the side streets. They never attacked alone. Instead, groups of them, armed to the teeth, would all attack one person at a time. Soon they had scattered the crowd and were not afraid any more. They took back control of Vali Asr Street.

Many youth didn’t expect such brutality from the police. Some even refused to believe that they were really Iranian. Despite the many witnesses and cameras the police broke the neck of one young woman, beat up an elderly woman with an electric baton and committed many more crimes. But people helped each other. They didn’t let the police ambulances grab the injured and took them to local clinics and hospitals themselves. There were rumours that some soldiers were overheard speaking Arabic and turned out to be Lebanese [a total fantasy]. Some of the soldiers, in response to people protesting their viciousness, would say: “Your time is up, now it’s our turn.”

A young student: Everybody is flabbergasted. The text messaging system has been shut down since two days before the election and half an hour ago (about 18 GMT 13 June) the whole mobile phone system was cut off. The [state-run] TV is not saying anything about the protests, but the Leader [Ayatollah Ali Khamenei] said in a broadcast, “Our enemies want to rob the people of the sweetness of their victory. Be vigilant.” Nobody else is being shown on the telly. We are getting information through Facebook (filtered during the elections but clear for the last two days) and Web sites (most of which are filtered too). Where I live, many people are depressed, but in Vanak and Zartosht and Vali Asr (downtown Teheran) as well as in front of the Interior Ministry, things are moving…

Latest news: the police have attacked the hospitals in order to arrest the injured. And there have been altercations between the police and the nurses and doctors who resisted this.

The Hope of the Hopeless– A leaflet some worker activists distributed 13 June

The deceiving presidential elections ended with predetermined results: Ahmadinejad’s victory. The people who in the last few weeks marched in the streets with many hopes and small dreams and who thought “This time is different” are flabbergasted and disillusioned. The organized security and law and order forces and a part of Shiite clergy who have put their outrageous and lying peons in power as planned are in a state of readiness. Anyone looking with open eyes at what was going on behind the scenes in the campaign, anyone not resting content with the expressions of naïve enthusiasm of young women and men, could predict the enormous fraud. The Islamic Republic’s intelligence services were assured that Ahmadinejad would be the victor. Intelligence agency rumour-mongers and those organising the government’s opinion poles over the last two weeks were saying, “the Leader is with Ahmadinejad, so he’ll be the winner for sure.” The threats against unauthorized demonstrations issued by the commanders of the repressive forces – even before the election – were a powerful clue that a fraud was being organised.

Isn’t what is going on in front of people’s eyes yet more proof of the regime’s illegitimacy? Do the conciliatory forces and reactionaries turned “democrats” – who bombarded the people’s minds in the last two weeks and drew many people to the ballot box by giving them hope of change – have anything to say today? The reality is that, as usual, the ruling system was the winner of elections. The vast participation of the masses was taken as legitimising the system. And this was the main goal of the election game.

Convincing or pushing the discontented masses to vote in this reactionary game was the common point agreed upon by not only various factions of the IRI but also the imperialist powers. They tried to convince the masses who had not trusted the regime for a long time that they should chose between the lesser of two evils, and be happy that one of those evils would win. It’s enough to pay attention to the propaganda broadcasts of the Voice of America and the BBC Persian service to see how they helped heat up the oven of the elections and convinced undecided and distrustful people that by taking their hopes to the temples of Mousavi and Karoubi [the two reform candidates] things could change for the better. Now, after the results have been announced, we see the same imperialist media trying as hard as they can to persuade angry youth from expressing their dissatisfaction and revolt. Has the influence of reformist thinking and illusion-creating policies been so strong that it saps the strength of the system’s opponents and dampens the fire of struggle against these outrageous oppressors?

All these events should at least have the positive side of dealing a blow to illusions and pipe-dreaming among the people. The youth who were chanting slogans, singing and dancing night and day with the hope of breaking the wall of oppression and suppression – will they accept such injustice? Amidst all this, the question we struggling workers and activists related to the workers’ movement want to pose is this: Can one be the vanguard of change by staying aloof from events? The positions and scattered leaflets here and there of worker activists against the election farce are far from enough. There is danger in this. The situation must be understood and correct slogans and politics developed rapidly and taken to workplaces, neighbourhoods and streets. Once again this fundamental truth must loudly resound throughout society so that bewilderment and disillusionment does not lead to demoralization: Revolution is the hope of the hopeless!

Reports from the days leading up to elections

Ever since the campaign started, the debate was on among the people. Many youth wore [Islamic] green headbands or armbands to show allegiance to Mousavi. The colour of Karoubi was off-white and Ahmadinejad supporters wore black (but later started carrying the tricolour Iranian flag). Everywhere we go, in taxis, bus, the tube, even street corners, there is talk about the election. Almost everybody expresses an opinion. Even people wearing green ribbons are saying, “We know it’s a matter of choosing between two evils, that Mousavi is not our man, but we’ll vote to keep Ahmadinejad from being re-elected.”

I was on a bus. At one stop a young man came on and started distributing green ribbons. When he reached me, I didn’t take it. He said, “What’s wrong with you? You’re young, aren’t you?” I said, “I’m young but my brain does work. I don’t want to vote.” After he left debate raged. A middle-aged woman said, “Who the fuck is Mousavi? We haven’t forgotten that when he was prime minister the Sarollah [Islamic morality police] patrols cut young women’s faces and lips because they were wearing makeup, and cut women’s hands or legs for wearing short sleeves. Now he pretends to be our saviour?” A young woman said, “Mousavi is not my candidate but I’ll vote for him anyway since I don’t want Ahmadinejad.. The country should be fixed through reforms. See what happened when you made revolution once?!” It was a great bus trip.

The next day in the tube I heard a young man screaming, “I don’t want to vote, nobody should vote, they’re all the same. Nothing changes.” Somebody responded, “If you don’t want to vote, don’t, but why create a bad atmosphere?” Another young woman said, “We vote because we want freedom.” A woman asked, “What kind of freedom is Mousavi going to give you?” The other answered, “They say Iran will be like Turkey; the veil will be voluntary.” I was shocked. At one point Mousavi said that he would discontinue the morality police patrols, but he stopped even saying that. The same kind of discussion was repeated in taxis…

A week before the elections: from some worker activists

The night of the televised debate between Ahmadinejad and Mousavi, a lot of people were watching their TV sets.. The candidates’ mutual insults and boasting had filled the newspapers for months. The day after the debate, the discussion among the people was hot. Even people not usually interested in politics took part in these passionate arguments. Ahmadinejad made some sharp exposures of Mousavi, Khatami [the ex-"reform" president], Rafsanjani [Iran's richest man, a pillar of the Islamic regime and a powerful backer of Mousavi, widely hated for his personal corruption], and many others in such a way that made many people change their mind about who they were going to vote for and even incited people who didn’t want to vote to go and vote anyway. The reality was that these exposures did not reveal even a thousandth what is really happening and yet Mousavi had nothing to say in response.

Night. Street. Constant honking and the voices of people shouting slogans. I went out. There were supporters of Mousavi and Ahmadinejad, and some people watching. This was the result of last night’s TV debate. The slogans were ridiculous. People were out until 3 or 4 in the morning. The forces of order were only watching. They were trying to be polite, asking people to go home. I asked myself if they were thinking: “Wait until the election is over, we’ll show you, just wait.”

The streets are filled with women and youth. The colour most visible is green…. The Ahmadinejad-Mousavi TV debate produced contradictory results. Some people really liked the exposures Ahmadinejad did of Rafsanjani and Nateghnouri and they completely forget who was saying these things. It shows you how over the last 30 years these questions of “self-enrichment”, “theft” and “privileges” have created such complex hatred in the society that even Ahmadinejad can manoeuvre in it. Many people liked Mousavi’s poise… Ironically a backward sentiment about a man’s “honour” acted against Ahmadinejad – some people didn’t like his disparaging treatment of Mousavi’s wife….

Now a lot of people who were cursing and promised they wouldn’t be fooled into participating in the elections ever again have changed their mind and are saying that it’s different this time. They’re not just saying that we have this Ahmadinejad problem, they’re saying we can win this time. They’ve started having hope.

The situation is really different from previous elections. The last time the sentiment for boycotting them was strong. And you didn’t see this enthusiasm in the streets. But now a lot of people come out and argue against boycotting the elections. I can firmly say that the schools for these various arguments against the boycott are the satellite TV stations! People are mouthing the same arguments voiced over the BBC or VOA by the various reactionaries and vacillating forces these media invite… What’s interesting is that the forces of repression have been deliberately taken off the streets. The few officers you see here and there just observe.

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Responding to: So Many Books (pt. 2)

First of all, if you’re interested in this great little book by Gabriel Zaid that tackles publishing, reading, and writing in the 21st century, you may want to read the first part of my response here.

“And just a few thousand copies, read by the right people, are enough to change the course of conversation, the boundaries of literature, and our intellectual life. What sense is there, then, in lunching books into infinity so that they are lost in the chaos?” (pg. 49)

Though it often reaches sentimental altitudes when a book-buyer stumbles into a shop and finds something rare, dignified, and gleaming through all of its rarity, the great implications of large printings is that they are potentially in many places for many uses; while certain texts, such as a new James Paterson novel or Eat This Not That pocket-book, are not at face value worth much of anything historically-speaking, even these texts represent our culture at the very moment, at this very statis in time.

To fill future shelves in Albania, Nigeria, and Haiti with books of these, which have value in their historo-cultural content, as well as perhaps intro-to-English dialectics, there may in fact be an imperialistic attitude reached with trying to send books to other countries. It’s like an invasion, to some degree; I remember working at my college book store and at the end of the semester, during the “buy-back period,” any books that were not resold to the book store would be thrown into the “send to Africa” bins located conveniently outside the book store’s exit. I can’t imagine Plato’s Cave or advanced Chemistry having much relevance in Somalia or Ethiopia, but I still argue that the presence of them is better than the presence of zero books at all. Having some sort of material to give away (though the material would probably be sold to these countries through our intricate, ever-arching web of consumerist non-profit and humanitarian organizations at some level) might help somebody. The chances might rise with every book you’ve got flying over there.

And at the same time, regardless of the language and the country the book comes from, its presence somewhere on this earth is tangible; it will likely exist, pages white or darkly yellowed or molding to mush, continuously. If human beings wipe their digital megaverses out (through cyber terrorism or technological evolution or what-have-you), the many pages in the many books will last in lockers, walls, chests, coffins, time-capsules, monuments, bunkers, and on and on and on. Our dependency on the intangible, the digital to be specific about it, is worrying; the presence of the physical object is balancing.

Of course the book-burning groups, which I recently fantasized about and which equally stem from the Nazis, Ray Bradbury and Wall-E, will probably come along after they realize how much paper trash really is out there, and will make it their primary goal to rid us of our archivable literature. You can already see such disposals through recycling bins, and even way before our “green age” began, at the local dumps. Ever been to a trash center? The piles of magazines are outstanding. One time in grade school we had to visit a local trash crematorium of sorts. I went off on my own and found the paper disposal building, on the floor of which were many a porn magazine. As you can imagine, a youth of the countryside like myself was enamored, enraptured even, by all the smut on the ground. I even wanted to steal the shit and take it back with me to drool over during the endless yellow busride back to school. Thankfully, fortunately, I never got that chance.

“[T]he true role of books, which is to continue our conversation by other means.” (pg. 49)

If the role of books is to continue conversation, then it means that conversation can be continued outside of the verbal communication environment; is another way of expressing language(s). But is it necessary? Here’s a brief, premature rundown of what books do: create ownership (ownership of art, ownership of material goods, collectors, et cetera), create hubris and pride (again, view the owner(s) of the creation), influence society on a cultural level both positively and negatively (especially via marketing tactics), cause isolation (and yes it’s good for an escape once in a while from the throws and exhaustion of living in a good or bad society, but what is that saying about the society if we want to escape it?), provide information to those that might not be able to get it via a real, living person or conversational voice, allow referencing (our memories are like balloons and do have limits), allow for studying (see previous isolation note), and are generally a displacement of information (instead of just telling you what I want to say, I’m going to write it down first, and maybe be more elegant, poetic, and refined, but you’ll have to wait a second or minute or hour or day because the book has to be printed and shipped and so on and so on . . .)–but there’s more!

Books are wonderful items in that they allow for the mass presentation of ideas (of the author and editor, yes, but also extending to the ideas of many others) through a conversation that cannot possibly take place between the voice in the book and the entire globe. Though oral histories could still, perhaps, be continued today even with our zany technologies, the written language allows you to take something valuable (contraceptive pamphlets) or influential (the Bible) and distribute it to an audience that normally wouldn’t be had. They are amazingly spreadable, and amazingly efficient. “Oh, I read this great book the other day about this guy who died on a cross in the name of forgiveness and I want you to read it, but I see I have to go to work way over here right now and you over there right now, and it’d just be easier for me to give you the damn thing!” Books are also great ways for developing ideas because they all for a concentrated form of interpretation; something you may or may not have gotten to the same degree through verbal communication, that standard Socratic conversation.

But do we need books to continue on? Evolution and revolution would probably be much slower, yes, but all the shit we get bombarded with, the tabloids and the faux-news, the advertising and the slush-culture, all of which probably numbs us down more than anything else, would not be as concentrated if the only medium of idea-exchange was through verbal communication. I can just imagine a busy Egyptian or Indian street, books not available to anyone, where everyone is yelling and trying to get a conversation going, for better or for worse, to buy, to sell, to trade, to exchange, nobody in their homes reading, everyone jabbering away. Maybe life would be too overwhelming without books; especially with a population like that of todays.

I’d definitely want to pull an Edward Abbey and head for the hills; or am I thinking of the Unibomber? Or am I thinking of Emily Dickenson? Or am I thinking of or last president? Or am I thinking of all the Mainers up there right now sucking in the sweet pine air, canoeing and paddling . . . but then again, it’s reaching a point where the huddled masses have relieved themselves of nearly all verbal communication with text messaging, cell phone emails, and of course our personal computer station hubs where we can live out our non-verbal existence surfing the net, writing blog posts, or living in virtual gaming realities; soon we won’t have to talk to each other at all, verbally. Remember those headsets that came out for some of those games on the PS2 and X-Box? Did those even take off after a year or so of being in existence? I wouldn’t have anything to say to the guy I just fragged with a grenade launcher for the 5000th time either.

“Culture isn’t a product, of course. But what then are oranges, orchids, birds, sunsets? Anything can begin as revelation and become currency, an object, a commodity. To avoid this, a process of certification is invented, as ambiguous as the object itself. The word becomes a notarized contract; the academic title provides a guarantee; the insitution legitimizes; the stamp of cognoscenti certifies.” (pg. 53)

There are numerous issues with this statement, many to which are obvious and widely debatable–I mean come on, culture isn’t a product? Are we sure? What about Disney World culture? What part of that isn’t merely the selling of souls in order to please some cash-holder? And aren’t we under one huge gridded umbrella of control and systematic sales, anyway? African music: Putamayo; Alabama quilts: art museum posters; poetry books: college Creative Writing markets (which is chronologically linear, ascending steeply). Hip hop is arguably one of the biggest sold cultures, or pieces of culture, in America (and in other countries today); in America hip hop not only has an audience through the African American communities (and most of the emcees marketed come directly from these communities because they know, they “know,” these communities, and how better to push a product than by having someone who bought and ate up the product in the first place teaching you about the market?), but also has an audience through the middle and upper classes–it’s very cool and emotionally, socially rewarding for hip white kid A (like myself, for instance) to enjoy hip hop, even though hip hops largest roots didn’t come from my own background.

I remember loving Busta Rhymes, Notorious BIG, and Jermaine Dupree in 5th grade; I went on to like the Beastie Boys and Eminem and Limp Bizkit, those rappers/rap groups I could racially identify myself with (being from Maine, race was always a big thing, though a subconscious and repressed thing) in high school, and then continued the white rapper obsession with artists like Sage Francis in early college. Fascinatingly, I really got into Lil Wayne due to the music site Pitchfork in Junior and Senior year of college, and since then have been blending my fascination for white hip hop emcees (including Aesop Rock and Atmosphere) with old school, gangsta, crunk, Lil Wayne, and other shitty contemporary hip hop.

Lately I’ve been on a deejay kick with Peanut Butter Wolf and Charizma, and have gotten into some of the whackiest, though prolific, emcees like MF Doom and Q-Tip, but I still think it’s funny when I listen to Clipse and pretend like Atlanta coke dealing is any way relevant to me, or that there is something beyond the absurd that I’m gaining from listening to it. Though the beats are pretty cool. Also of importance is the new “white kids hip hop” that is cropping up in response to the interest gentrifiers and boojie hip kids with their interest in a predominantly black genre: artists like Cool Kids are coming around and providing hip hop directed particularly toward this audience; it’s no longer about the streets, but about growing up playing video games, going to house parties, and one-two-buckle-my-shoe. Is this really a bad thing? It’s certainly the way of the biz, so to speak, and its pretty obvious; but there are tons of undergrond circles I’m not even touching. The poetry of the emcees that you will never hear is still going on out there, regardless of entire cultures, subcultures, and art forms being sold off like hotcakes. People are spouting their rhymes, just like they are writing their books, and providing them (not even with monetary charge, sometimes, like in the case of e-books like the one I just released, Toward Pandemic!) for smaller circles, narrowed audiences.

Going back to the quote, I instantly tried to think of things in the world that aren’t looked at as objects, as commodities, today. I instantly thought of the article with CA Conrad and Brenda Iijima: the Interlude on Poetics as Dirt, and I thought about dirt. While land, this semi-tangible, semi-corporeal concept we humans, Americans in particular, zoom onto through our wonderful capitalist system, is all about dirt, it’s not really about dirt. Unless you’re a geologist or gardener, you probably won’t walk down the street, especially in an urban environment, and say: look at all this prosperous DIRT I have on my hands. Yet we could, and I’m sure it’s only a matter of time. Maybe it will eventually be used in terms of fuel or maybe we will start selling handfuls of earth for bottlecaps. There are strange things in this world like dirt, and perhaps rain, that many of us probably wouldn’t hold as objects. I mean, going after the thing itself, we could easily classify all of this as object this and object that, but it’s not the same in the sense that you might ever want it to be an object. For lack of a bigger vocabulary, things like dirt, rain, and . . . you can see I’m struggling with additional examples here . . . even dustballs are resources but they remain neglected resources. The source of the neglect is that we are distracted; however, once we have (if we do) completely wrecked our state of affairs/existences and have nothing left, we may turn to these resources and certify them, legitimize them, but until that time, they remain passive.

But here’s a curious thought: for such a passive thing that we deal with regularly, weather has a presence in our daily life (usually a hatred or bland regard) that takes up space in conversation more than anything else; and yet, we never go beyond the step of liking or hating weather. Another standardization of our daily life to keep us from getting a little too worked up, a little too out of the daily grind? I can just imagine another world, very similar to ours, only sans weather channel, where shamanic businessmen do rain dances in the morning before getting their grande lattes and jumping on the el for a quick trip to the office, in a world where water is scarce and begged for. I can just imagine people doing lightning dances, when all the lightning comes all the time and people are shitting their minds apart hoping they are one of thousands getting zapped on that particular day. I can just imagine people doing earth dances, eating dirt, crafting dirt, art-ifying dirt, because all the book burners came and burned their books, and all their virtual reality servers crashed, and all the bottlecaps were spent, and then all we would have would be the dust and the dustballs, that last part of our bodies floating around in the corners of the room. I think people would love and hate and acknowledge and interact with each and every thing in this world before they went after the gray dirt/skin particles hiding out in the corners of the rooms. Yeah, sweep away, dust away; the object as anti-object. Maybe poets turn into dustballs after they die.

Part three of this article series will be written soon, but until then, buy the book, and for goodness sake, pay attention!

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My May Poem

It is 2009 and you and I struggle with the same things

we struggled with last year and the year before and

for example I read Simic’s translation of Janevski, Slavko

called the Bandit Wind and remember nothing about it

and yet I also read Iain Banks’s the Wasp Factory

and there’s something about that which I do remember.

Perhaps it’s because I read the former several months ago,

or perhaps it’s because there is rarely envigoration,

or perhaps it’s because Wasp takes place in Scotland

instead of the cruel cold cut region of Macedonia, where

love surely cannot exist and neither can humans, really.

But I thank Andrew for the exotic verse tome since surely

it has affected my life in some way beyond my memory.

I sit here getting ready to watch the Wire while beyond

the fence behind my house (which I never bothered

checking out since I’ve been here, since October) children

play on a court behind their school with the sun bright.

It’s 5:16pm but feels like noon and I’m afraid of dusk

and I am afraid that my inspiration will heave away

like a sigh around the block, air slowly releasing, children

going to their own homes, to be with their families, friends,

while I watch about Baltimore, read manuscripts, and

get ready to go get coffee with a communist downtown.

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Two Poems for Two Birthdays

Hopefully the recipients, those honored in the poems, won’t read these before the birthdays occur.

“How We Hold”
for Katie on her 19th birthday

Inside, the trees drip their last rain,
the branches dried quickly in neon.
The things we do are blankets wrapped
around the things we choose to hide.
What is the intersection like before
we don our fabrics and warmths?
There was once the picture of cars
stopped at their respective sides, lights
yellowing to red before pause and halt.
Now there is the picture of the blue
walls in this house blue and nude.
No one has put up art in this castle,
but there is a five-blade white fan
hanging on the ceiling with its lights.
The fan slides air gently down to skin,
leaving a chill as residual as its hum.
Perhaps inside the house the trees
are dreaming in large ocean waves,
or clipping their branches like a doo.
Each moment we become crafters
shaping the ether into fresh models.
Life becomes more about clay than
about life, though everything is deniable.
When walking along the street, does
each dime turn its face up to face you?
In the rain the sun pressurizes after
the panic of isolation leaving us waiting.
On a school’s whiteboard a markered
sol wore a pair of shades and smiled.
Across the room on another board
a small cross was drawn beneath a tree.
The trees are not yet shedding their skins,
turning brown and baring secrets out,
but as ents their imagery is still based on
subtraction, white space between limbs,
even if white is the green of jungles.
The house was built around the trees
for all to notice that the house was built.
Open the door or the window, or break
the wall down to watch the trees live.

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“How We Had: A Memory of Gorham, Maine”
for Robert Frazier on his 63rd birthday

In the hollow of the trees
where does the strength come from?

How we had those jingles of glass
during the epigraphic earthquakes.

Is the strength noticed through ruby rays
that perusing our porch before dusk?

Is it in the paws of the wild family dog
trekking across the open lawns?

Beneath the bending branches
many names have been made new,

and many have been forgotten or dried-out,
but we still live to see the order of terms.

An undisclosed corner has different sides
to which may be appropriately pierced.

Do you sit with eyes pacific and shut
or do are they always wrenched open?

Those colors of the evening walls
are like gold feet intruding property.

The rush of the blood to the head is too quick,
too quick to be judged before dawn.

The evening’s reds move along transposing
like the reeds and the bramble in summer.

Then with sunset gone we notice the buglers,
birds who have started their evening tunes.

Among the dark figures of all the boundaries,
we discover to have a full throttle of sound.

It may be night but it is not symbolic night.
It is the time of cheerful parties and swaggers.

Outside remains but we wait to think of it,
reflecting on the gold dust replacing red.

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Spontaneity Reassessed; Glare

As Jeff called us after the fact, the Picked Pockets returned for a night of composing and reading this giant, orgiastic poem that I had the pleasure of contributing to and recording. It was good to stay away from becoming a reader myself for once. The method was spontaneous. I started writing some stuff on Jeff’s scratchpad and then it became known to everyone around me that there was some writing going on. It soon became an exercise that would later be read aloud. Anyway, there were “prompts,” which you can hopefully make out via the titles of the videos. Here are the recordings:

“Have You Seen”:

“Have You Heard”:

“Untitled”:

“Where Have All the Cowboys Gone”:

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When Grandmothers Trans

Mary “Ma” Frazier, wife of the late Raymond H. Frazier, said goodbye to her many friends and many more relatives as she passed away April 22, 2009, in Bangor. She was born Sept. 15, 1915, in Argentia, Newfoundland, and was educated in St. John’s, Newfoundland, one of 13 children of John and Suzanna (O’Reilly) Power. After graduating from Ballaheully Post Graduate School, she returned to Argentia, Newfoundland, to work in wartime communications at the U.S. Naval Base. After becoming a naturalized citizen of the U.S., she transferred to Quonset Point, R.I., until the war ended in 1945. She married in 1943 and traveled to many places in the U.S. with her U.S. Army Corps of Engineers husband, including Alaska and Iceland. Mary was always active in her community and church; a member of the Sodality and Daughters of Isabella of St. Mary’s Parish, Bangor. For 20 years she supervised St. Mary’s Hot Lunch Program. She greatly enjoyed the children. Mary concurrently worked 20 years at the Bangor International Airport Tax Free Shop and the last 25 years as a senior home companion. She was a member of Bangor Democratic City and Penobscot County Democratic committees, as well as a regular ward clerk for 50 years. Her knitting prowess was known by all, especially her grandchildren, as she created afghans for each based upon their favorite colors. She was a devoted wife, a dedicated and loving mother, grandmother and great-grandmother. Mary is survived by her son, Robert and his wife, Laurie Bem Frazier, of Gorham; her daughter, Suzanne and her husband, Roy Ziegler, of Brewer and Jenson Beach, Fla.; six grandchildren, Kelly Adams of Northfield, N.H., Kristin Frazier of Freeport, Allison Frazier of Bangor, Kevin Frazier, Greg Bem and Katie Bem of Gorham; great-grandchildren, Hunter, Caleb, Megan and Kendra; sisters, Monica McCarthy of Freshwater, Newfoundland, and Kay Bruce of St. John’s, Newfoundland; brother, Albert Power of St. John’s, Newfoundland; sister-in-law, Margaret Power of Milton, Mass.; hundreds of nieces and nephews; a special family pet, Rowboat; and countless faithful friends, including Alicia Black, Mitzi Rogers, Margaret Clancey, Sue Clifford, Sylvia Washburn and Herbert Skidgel. Family and friends may visit 5-7 p.m. Friday, April 24, at Kiley & Foley Funeral Service, 299 Union St., Bangor. A Mass of Christian burial will be celebrated 10 a.m. Saturday, April 25, at St. Mary’s Catholic Church, Bangor. Burial will be in the family plot at Mount Pleasant Cemetery. In lieu of flowers, contributions may be made to Senior Companion Program, University of Maine Cooperative Extension, 5717 Corbett Hall, Room 301, Orono, ME 04469-5717 or to a charity of one’s choice.

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And the poem I wrote for her:

Poem for Mary Frazier Written a Day after Her Death

All of the pieces fit together
once we exhaust the many searches.

The transience in the cold dusk
gently lifts a veil or quilt
made out of all the puzzles
we used to form the model.

During some moods we focused on
our childhoods spent lapping
the waters of adulthoods, tongues
hanging low as we look back and
forward, shaking our heads but smiling.

Is to harden up ones values also
to soften our love for one another?

Do the most brittle of trees,
their bark aged, sturdy, of success,
still dawn to bear some fruit
in the late, bright skies of summer?

It was always about the roots,
the parts of the trees we couldn’t see.
Sounds of creaking buried beneath soil
cranking out laughter and warmth.

Even after all grows to fresh heights,
the roots embed deep, grow silent,
loom up and over like sparkling stone
sunlit, a vast, visual memory echo.

Maine sits on the cusp of the ancients.
Within its trees is a moral language.
From the skin to the tips of leaves,
to the soul of the tree many feet below,
and to the ashes composed of all the leaves,
there exists a moral code most permanent.

The respect is like carving beneath the bark,
a restructuring of living material.

On a bank somewhere in the wooded middle
a cabin sits fresh, the smells distinct.
The steps to your home downtown
creak with the tones of the code too.
So does your bureau, or cabinet,
which opens when you need it most,
which gets scratched with time.

The days continue on, but the chanting
can be heard like a wheel well,
or the stones at a street’s bus stop,
or the rubbing of knitting fabric,
the pennies played, our own churches
attended to in our various own ways.

Still we have the tree, the mighty
luminescence bouncing off of it,
the sunshine gliding through it,
and the dew setting to it, while
animals prepare their new homes,
build upon limbs their new chances,
live life amidst the twigs, dance,
and move about to the beat of a
swaying monument in the forest wind,
a marker in time, testament of will,
beauty that we may nap or play beneath.

The puzzles are the hardest to get
when the images are mixed and matched,
yet sometimes the hardest challenge
means the picture is most vivid.

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